Okay so hi all my beautiful blog readers :)

( = noone) (lol.)

Right now I am at granmas and so is carl. Omg why do i always have to say stuff about carl? its so un~intresting. . . and im going somewhere with my dad, stepmum and my stepmums parents todayyy. its going to be awful cause i suck at socialising. I dont have to talk to my dad or my stepmum, cause they know i dont like talking or being outside my room and stuff. but her parents. uugh. i hate being with them cause they are so sweet. and i cannot be that nice back. i always end up putting on a fake smile, trying to be polite, stumbeing after them in different ,weird and unwanted conversations. they are on their way here right now ;~;

Ill be back kinda late i guess. . .

and tomorrow were going on a cruise to riga. i kinda hate sunlight right now, cause my eyes are so tierd they burn just by looking at this screen. so that will be fun. . .

anyways. please leave a comment if you want me to blog about smtg special :)

just fyi: im working on that ''creepy story'' right now and im planning on drawing soon again.

xoxo

My edits.

Im way too tierd to wait for carl.

ugh, god please dont kill me but I havent slept much at all.

*hugs* sweet dreams

Daddy said i was special.

Mommy said i was pretty.

Then they bought me a mirror.

now i feel shitty.

my poem.

(Btw, Im wrighting a creepy story right now. I think it will be out tomorrow or so)

today I want to bring a very emotional and tiering subject up. Bullying. I guess you understand why I called it 'emotional'. But why tiering ? . Well, it happends so often that it seems normal, which is truly horrible. 77% of all students are bullyied. it happends so often that people think they ''understand'' it, when they dont. And that gets pretty fucking annoying at times. I know this cause i've known a lot of poeple who are/ were bullied. At times even suicidal because of it. I dont know anyone, but there are people who has even comitted suicide because of it. they have been called so brutal things, Been through such hells and often had family problems. no one should ever feel hated or unwanted. no one should excperience bullying.

Now I have only told you things you already knew.

Lets go to the practical part;

''wtf  do i do if my friend is bullied???''

Answer ;

its very individual how the person who is getting bullyed wants you to act.

sometimes they dont want you to care at all. but even if they recist, help them.

assuming that person is often alone, you should start really carefully.

dont start with talking to the bullys (if thats what youre planing), start with talking to the bullyed person. hopefully becoming friends :)

talk about how she/ he is feeling, what they want to do about it etc.

then you can either go to an adult, teacher or parent/parents and ask for help. (thats usaly what you are adviced to do). But my answer is on the ''grade'' of bullying. if its physical abusement that puts either of you in any kind of danger, go to an adult that can help. if its more that he/ she calls the bullyed person things or says 'mean' stuff etc, defend him/ her. But please, always tell an adult whats going on.

Okay, so I tought it would be nice for you to know what I look like cx

warning: Shitty content. . .

pwease dont judge, I'm kinda shy. . .

*hides* . . . *forever* *and dies* . . . 

I dont even know xDD

#Weirdpoem #Idontevenknowifthisisapoem #butwhatevs

I have slept 9 hours in the last three days.

I rly dunno if thats healthy.

But I dont wanna worry my boyfriend.

btw, from now on my boyfriends name is carl.

(it isnt carl, just private ;p).

Carl is so cute, in everyway.

as you can see, he is the only thing worth mentioning in my life.

i want it to be x-mas. . .

cause then carl* comes to sweden xD.

ugh, i'm so pathetic.

Btw I painted the joker not too long ago cx and here he is;

/.\ no judge. hehe. lol. *crawls away and dies*

But I guess while were at it. . . i could show you another drawing i started before. cx   

(Not done)

. . . . . I rly need to work on this one xD  

Anyways, hope u have a great day, hun.

I wuv chu.

''Today I woke up and started overthinking.

But I got brainwashed again, hering it raining.

I got chained to my new boyfriend.

i dont wanna know how this will end.

And now i forgot what i was gonna say.

i dunno where Im going with this.

Just like the mathtest the other day.

People told me how I should be.

So I tryed my best but failed.'

Im just smiling cause Im too lazy to cry.

Sometimes I feel lonley, trying to find a friend.

But I always end up slutting around.

FAlling asleep to my cryings sound.

Tho thats why god forgave my sins.

It kinda feels like he and satan are twins.

Im just crying cause Im too lazy to smile.

I dunno where Im going with this.

Just like the mathtest the other day.

People told me how I should be.

So I tryed my best but failed.''

I guess this is A PART OF MY NEW SONG xd

tHO i HAVE 0 % MELODY TO IT AND NO TITLE. YET. CX

*HUGS*