okay hi cx

yesterday my bf was late so i freaking fell asleep again. i hate myself for it. instead i woke up to like 6 cute messages that he send about him loving and missing me. . .haha, u dont really give a fuck, do you?.

anyways,

I kinda know two things id like to do when I grow up.

#1 Be a writer.

#2 Be a song writer.

I guess I could be both, as their kinda the same xd

i was thinking about posing songs im working on and stories etc. lol. i know im weird. 

good morning :)

Do u know what i hate?

no? okay cool. here is a list of "things I truly hate"

#1  me.

#2  Beauty.

#3  People who can't speak english.

#4  When people takes away my internet.

#5  Old people.

#6  When there is no music around.

#7  Mint.

#8  waiting.

#9  People commenting my clothes.

#10 Low battery.

xoxo

Current mood:

Apperently, Im gettin a spidah.

I hate spidahs.

His/her name shall be bond.

james bond.

jk, his names peter.

petah da spidah.

my bf's fave singer is someone who made the song "Pearl of  the stars". . .

I have to agree its awesome and stuff. but when he said "Id totaly go gay for him" my sudden jelousy just started ripping inside me. I dunno why. I mean, the singer has kids and a wife, im way hotter than him and there is not such a big chanse they will ever see eachother irl. . . But. . . It felt thretening somehow. so we aregued. I knew I was just being silly and stuff but now he is mad at me. ugh, if he was here i could just have kissed him and everything would be ok. I cant be mad at him, and it feels like shit when he is mad at me.

#Problems

anyways, here is the song. I rly started crying litsening to it. so i kinda get why he said what he said. .  

hope ur having a great night.

I'm filled with so much trash.

My creativity had to breed with shit.

now i'm filled with a billion misstakes.

my poem.

02:12

waiting for mt boyfriend.

Havent slept in like two days.

hungry. 

ugh.

He is 3 years older than me.

He is from mexico but lives in dennmark.

rn he is on holiday to Mexico...

= we have different time zones.

he is the cutest ever, but we usaly argue alot.

He is one of te few reasons I'm alive.

We skyped 3 h ago.

he will be back in 4 h

. . .

Its kina impossible to be mad at something you cant live without.

hope u r feelin well and have a cuddley night.

here is a huge hug from me; *Huge hug*

kik me: GimmeAPocky

once my brain was like theirs.

Then it ran out of sense.

And I sold it for love.

My heart became my eyes.

I guess love is blind.

It got raped, and killed.

Then I used my soul.

I found a devil.

I sold my soul to get my normal life back.

''God I miss my brain''.

he draged me down to hell, as promised.

Then you found me.

You found a shell filled with blood among

 flames.

A lost girl who survived a nightmare.

You cut her realitys skyes open.

She fell down into your dream.

Down into your arms.

Down into what people call love.

One of my poems.

   Hello.

I really don't know how to start this off xD

Well, maybe I should warn you; I suck at spelling, so no judge xp

10 facts about me :)

#1 My name is Ottilia, call me Lia tho.

#2 I'm bi.

#3 My fave color is black.

#4 I love metal.

#5 My fave band is GetScared.

#6 Im an otaku.

# 7 My lucky nr is 7.

#8 I live in Uppsala, in Sweden.

#9 I am depressed.

#10 Im pretty dumb.

. . .

Hope I didn't scare you away x3

Anyways, if u wanna talk or smtg kik me; GimmeAPocky